She couldn't stop smiling at him, and her hand found his, their fingers twining together without thought. Right now all her other concerns fell away. They were concerns that would break a person, that would slowly drive them crazy, but they didn't matter right now. Right now... Jax was the center of her world the way he'd been from when he was sixteen and until she was put into the back of that squad car, when she'd realised they were both lost and the only ones who had hope left were Abel and Thomas.

That hope.... she had that hope now for them, for Jax and for herself, and she felt like the weight of the world had been lifted off of her heart for these precious minutes. "I think," she said after a second, after biting her lip while she thought for a moment, "that I would rather it was while you weren't here, so we can do it right. Because there is no way we're sleeping together in this bed." She grins, and it's clear that she's joking about them hooking up was directly related to him proposing, and also was enough for sway her as to where he'd ask. ".... But... if I have any say in it, I want this to only be once, baby, and I want it to be how you want it. You know what I'll say, and I know you had plans." She needs him to decide because everything he does with every passing day helps cement him in her mind as Jax, and the man she had previously married worked on becoming a distant nightmare that this man would never be. "Is that okay?"

She took his hand in hers and kissed his fingers as her eyes searched his for some hint on what he wanted.