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drownedindreams) wrote2014-04-18 12:21 am
drownedindreams) wrote2014-04-18 12:21 am
the crowd is waiting for the final kiss, the one that allows them to sleep well
She was able to get in to see him because she was a surgeon. Jax was in the ICU; he'd experienced massive blood loss, trauma - his O2 levels had been shot, but now he was in stable condition and they were waiting for him to wake up from the sedation from post surgery. He'd woken up briefly in the recovery room, but he'd been moved to the ICU and even though visitor's hours were over, she'd stay. She'd just stay, because she couldn't not stay.
He had a pain pump, and his assets - his assets, which included his kutte that had to be peeled off his back - they'd been gathered up by the nurses after the fact, and put into bags that sat in the drawer by the bed. She sat by his bed, holding his hand. She'd never put back on her bandage after his surgery, and she was still in scrubs; she'd been awake twenty two hours at this point, but she wouldn't sleep, she'd be here. She'd be here, for him, until he woke up. Her free hand that wasn't holding his scrubbed at her cheeks as she pulled in a breath, and she exhaled slowly, just watching his chest rise and fall.
He had a pain pump, and his assets - his assets, which included his kutte that had to be peeled off his back - they'd been gathered up by the nurses after the fact, and put into bags that sat in the drawer by the bed. She sat by his bed, holding his hand. She'd never put back on her bandage after his surgery, and she was still in scrubs; she'd been awake twenty two hours at this point, but she wouldn't sleep, she'd be here. She'd be here, for him, until he woke up. Her free hand that wasn't holding his scrubbed at her cheeks as she pulled in a breath, and she exhaled slowly, just watching his chest rise and fall.
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She nodded, though, when he said it was time for rest, because she couldn't do this again. Couldn't do it, anymore. She felt like she was losing everything, even though she wasn't. Even though he was alive.
"I just did my job, Jax." She said it quietly, and then she squeezed his hand, pushing herself to her feet - and she swayed, actually needing to catch herself on the railing. "I... I'm going to get some sleep - I've got my phone on me, you can use the hospital phone to call me, if you need anything. Okay?" She moved to kiss him one last time, murmuring softly, "I love you."
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"You take care of yourself. That's what I need. I love you too."