She doesn't have the ability to self-censor it yet. She does know what happened, and she tells him, because the words come out oddly flat and simple.

"Blunt force trauma to the head, and then I was half-drowned, before I was stabbed nine times in the back of the head with a carving fork."

Her hands are shaking as she says it, and she can't stop the way her breath is forced, and she feels like right now, right now she can barely breathe. "Probably Jax's mother?" That's when her voice gets all weird, all high-pitched and half-panicked. "So now she has my sons and Jax the way she's always wanted, and I'm- I'm-" And she just stops, staring out ahead of them, and Macha whines, staring up at both of them.