She nodded when he said that, and she wrapped her arms around herself as she moved to go get it. She was cold, but more than that, she was afraid, and confused. "Okay. I'll go get it." She licked her lips, and when she went to get her things, she palmed the knife out of her purse, moving it to an outside pocket so she'd be able to get to it easily.
She came back, and she carefully shut the door, not chain locking it, just in time for his question, which made her brows knit even more. "I- I'm not really tired-" She was exhausted, it was two in the morning, not that she knew that. She'd barely been sleeping, the last few nights. "Just a cup of coffee," she said after a second, and she licked her lips, her eyes darting around his apartment like a nervous rabbit, until her eyes flicked over the bike posters, and she rolled her eyes. "I'm amazed you don't have those calendars and shit that's plastered all over the office," she was trying to keep it light, but it was so forced, and she was still waiting for that shoe to drop.
Finally, she just said it. "If you're-" She stopped, having to take a deep breath as her face crumpled. "When you do it, I'd- I'd rather it not be in front of the boys, so." She pulled in a deep breath. "It's better, if they're asleep-" her hand was shaking as she shook her head a second time, her fingers scrubbing at her face. "I can't just pretend like it's okay, until then. I can't, Jax. I can't- coffee, and talking about where I'm going to sleep?" She pulled in an uneven breath. "I know it's coming. I don't know what's going on, but I know it's coming, I can't pretend."
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She came back, and she carefully shut the door, not chain locking it, just in time for his question, which made her brows knit even more. "I- I'm not really tired-" She was exhausted, it was two in the morning, not that she knew that. She'd barely been sleeping, the last few nights. "Just a cup of coffee," she said after a second, and she licked her lips, her eyes darting around his apartment like a nervous rabbit, until her eyes flicked over the bike posters, and she rolled her eyes. "I'm amazed you don't have those calendars and shit that's plastered all over the office," she was trying to keep it light, but it was so forced, and she was still waiting for that shoe to drop.
Finally, she just said it. "If you're-" She stopped, having to take a deep breath as her face crumpled. "When you do it, I'd- I'd rather it not be in front of the boys, so." She pulled in a deep breath. "It's better, if they're asleep-" her hand was shaking as she shook her head a second time, her fingers scrubbing at her face. "I can't just pretend like it's okay, until then. I can't, Jax. I can't- coffee, and talking about where I'm going to sleep?" She pulled in an uneven breath. "I know it's coming. I don't know what's going on, but I know it's coming, I can't pretend."