"Tara..." He didn't know how to answer the hard parts, so he started with the easy one first, shaking his head heavily. "My life before you got here was going to the garage and fucking around with cars. And then maybe fucking around with someone else, hoping for some kind of real connection, but none of them were you. Since you got here, that's when I finally started living. Started actually sitting down with my son and watching him grow, going out to shit and watching lanterns..."
He believed it, really did. Before Tara had showed, he'd dropped Abel off at daycare and then worked all fucking day just to pay for that daycare. If he had energy left, he spent it in someone else's arms because sex was like breathing, a comforting impulse while he hunted for some fucking meaning for himself.
"I don't expect you to turn back Tara. Jesus. That's...I'm not stupid. I know you can't just turn back time. I don't want to. That's like asking you to come back to Charming at 30 and go back to who we were at thirteen. It's fucking pointless. But you are still the woman I love and I want to know who you are now."
He sighed, dropped into the mattress, trying to find something optimistic and hopeful but even he couldn't bury his head in the sand that far.
"So things come out. We talk about what we have to or you say you don't want to. Not now, maybe later, not ever. Ain't gonna hold you down and force that truth out but I ain't gonna force it back down your throat until you explode either."
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He believed it, really did. Before Tara had showed, he'd dropped Abel off at daycare and then worked all fucking day just to pay for that daycare. If he had energy left, he spent it in someone else's arms because sex was like breathing, a comforting impulse while he hunted for some fucking meaning for himself.
"I don't expect you to turn back Tara. Jesus. That's...I'm not stupid. I know you can't just turn back time. I don't want to. That's like asking you to come back to Charming at 30 and go back to who we were at thirteen. It's fucking pointless. But you are still the woman I love and I want to know who you are now."
He sighed, dropped into the mattress, trying to find something optimistic and hopeful but even he couldn't bury his head in the sand that far.
"So things come out. We talk about what we have to or you say you don't want to. Not now, maybe later, not ever. Ain't gonna hold you down and force that truth out but I ain't gonna force it back down your throat until you explode either."